To Blog or not to blog...

Happy early morning to you all. Its 1225 am on Friday morning as I am typing this. Made the mistake of taking a nap tonight. Would have slept all night, but I drank way too much water! Speaking of which, I'm drinking a lot more lately. Tummy has been upset after eating. I feel like I'm not sleeping at all, which is not the case. I'm actually sleeping about 10 hours every night. Maybe I'm fighting off a stomach bug that's going around. Who knows!

Well, Rich and Ann went before the bishoric tonight. Sounds like the meeting went ok. Guess our blogs are being read by Bishop. Sir, if you read this one, I do hope that you are enlightend by what I write. Also, please know that I pray for you and the Ward nightly. The church has been a blessing to me in the short time I've been attending. Thank you.

I may be faced with shutting down my blog. I hope it does not come to that. I know that good comes from this. If nothing else, it gives me a chance to write down everything that I need to process, and allows me to get feedback. I really do enjoy writting here. I hope you all enjoy reading it.

Well, that's bout it for now. time to try to get some sleep before work tomorrow.

I can't believe its been 2 weeks since I've sat down to write in this! Sorry to all of my followers who are sadly dissapointed (LOL). Ok, so here's a recap of what's been going on.

Home church is going well. Rich does a great job at preparing our lessons each week. Now, we just need to find a way to keep the kids busy so moms can pay attention. But, that's the case no matter where we worship. The kids faces are hilarious when they take a sip of the wine. Willow looked back at me with her fance all scrunched up, "that's yucky, Mommy." Soo cute!

This past week, we had a great discussion on why its important to listen to the voice of God, and not rely on the voices of those who have passed on. Its something that I did as a younger person, and something that one of my sister wives still hangs on to. Being a Christian household, we must hold fast to the Scriptures, and follow the leading of God.

I started work at a Catholic/ Opus Dei boarding house. I'm cleaning and cooking for 8 unmarried Catholic men. Hate it! I should be at home cooking and cleaning for my family of 9. But, the good news is- I just got hired on with Buy Buy Baby!!! Its temp to start, but I have no doubt that I will prove myself worthy to stay on full time :-D

I've really enjoyed reading the comments that each of you leave on my blog. It is good to know that people out there are really reading these random mumblings of my mind. I assure you, there is more to come. Tomorrow's task: rearranging bedrooms to make room for everyone.

On a more solemn note: Rich and Ann face the Bishphoric tomorrow night for the excommunication hearing. I know both of them are dreading actually hearing the words, but we will stand strong as a family as we follow God in a new direction. I will miss our congregation at the LDS, but I know that God has a plan and purpose for this happening. Selfishly, I hope its to rock the boat a little.

Till next time, God bless you!

Preparing for Church

I have been given the task of preparing flatbread for sacrament on Sunday. I've made it before, but I feel more humbled this time. I guess I understand the meaning more now, that I am preparing such a holy blessing for my family. With this task, I am also preparing to teach my sister-wives more about the Bible. Ann was not raised in church, and the LDS is more focused on teaching doctrine than anything else. B has gone off and on, but does not have a strong foundation either. I guess my years of Bible College are finally paying off. I am humble and almost scared to take this on. I am not a spiritual leader! It is one thing for me to teach my children about God and how much He loves them. It is another thing entirely to teach my sisters! Rich is leading us as a family in the Sacrament, as well as a family "sermon". I want to teach my sister's more about the women in the Bible, and how to follow the good, and avoid the bad. What a task that has been set before me! I've always said that I learn and draw closer by teaching; I guess Heavenly Father is giving me that opportunity now.

Desperate...

The past few weeks, I have walked around this house in a daze. I feel empty, lost. Part of me feel dead. Its a terrible feeling! This morning, in the still of the morning, I finally figured out why. I have gotten so busy with life, that I've let my Spiritual life fall to the wayside. I have let myself get so bogged down with the business of life, that I have forgotten to just "be still".

Jesus, I need You to come and be here with me. I am DESPERATE for your touch again. Bring new life to this dry and thirsty soul. I want to know you on a level I have never known you before!