Friday, August 6, 2010

I have so much on my mind tonight, but I can't really pinpoint anything specific! Such an annoying status :-(. I keep sleeping in too late, so I feel like I'm not accomplishing much. However, I am still cleaning house and cooking dinner. So, I guess I'm not completely useless, haha. No, I'm not depressed or anything. I just have my days and nights confused. I'm setting my alarm in the morning to get up early. And, to keep me to that, I'm making doughnuts for breakfast.
I had such a rough day yesterday. My ex husband called and just yelled at me for putting his daughter in a situation like this. Yeah, he doesn't like my family set-up either. So, after I was able to calm down a little bit, Rich was able to assure me that everything will be fine. I just have to convince myself that I will not be left again. That will take a lifetime, a day by day struggle.
Sounds like we are heading to Indian mounds tomorrow. I'm really excited. I grew up going to Cahokia mounds in Illinois, and the ones here in Wisconsin are groups that broke off from the Illinois settlement. I hated going as a kid, but now that I'm older and have learned to love history. Maybe I can come to a better understanding of some things tomorrow. We shall see!
My patience is thin tonight. One part of such a big family is the lack of quiet in this house. There is always something going on. Its 11:30 PM, and almost everyone is still awake. Since the computer I mainly use is in the living room, I'm still in the middle of chaos. B is trying to get TJ to go to sleep, while we are watching a movie. My humble opinoin is that if he needs to go to sleep (he's only 7 months old), she needs to cuddle him in her bedroom where its quiet. The middle of the living room with a loud movie is not the best place to get a baby to sleep. But, that's just my opinoin.
I need to go get mine to bed. She's still WIDE awake. OH, but we made a big step in the right direction today!!! Willow used the bathroom!!! Yeah, I'm probably over excited, but I'm tired of buying so many diapers. My baby is growing up! Hard to belive she's almost 3 years old already.
Well, need to finish my starter and get to bed. If they turn out, I'll post the recipe on here tomorrow. Blessings!


  1. I admire your heart! It is sometimes hard to find a little alone time in a full house I totally understand that. Has it been hard adjusting to being #3? I am very fascinated by your family! May God bless you ALL!!!

  2. Life as #3 isnt bad at all. We are all equal, no ranking system in our family. I joined the family, found my niche, and we are working great!